I am sitting in our dark office space, with only a small splash of light coming from this laptop. It’s past my bedtime and I know I’m going to regret staying up, as I always do when the kids wake up much earlier than I’m ready to, and coffee is the only thing that seems to redeem my morning.
I can only barely make out the mess of paperwork that’s cluttering my desk and begging to be put away, but I’m not too worried about that right now. My mind is bogged down with other things. Things that are hard to clarify with words on a screen. I can sum it up with words like “financial problems”, “marital problems”, “parenting challenges”, but it runs deeper than that. It always does.
I feel like I am at a crossroads right now. Like decisions need to be made on which direction I should take before I can go any further. I’m trying to figure out what’s best for myself and my family and what I need to do make our future feel more secure and happy and less like I’m trapped in by situational circumstances.
I am very much in the dark. And I need a light bulb.
July 31st, 2010 at 5:23 PM
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Sometimes a splash of light is all we’re allotted, so that we learn to trust and follow God through and past that road directly in front of us. Planning ahead and being smart about things is one thing, but not moving in ANY direction because of being unsure of what lies beyond the little light we see… is not trusting God.
Grab hold of what he puts in front of you, and follow him with all your heart. He wants your happiness more than you do..
I love you Sharlatta! And SO very glad to see another blog! Keep writing!